Why I Blog

    "Why do I blog and post it on fb? Making it available for so many to see?"

    I asked myself this question some time ago in attempts to check my ego. To be sure I had not decided somewhere along the line in my self-centered tendencies that my life was just SOOO interesting that people awaited each & every blog. Keeping myself humble, I periodically review my motives & intentions. There are few things more beautiful than a humble, grateful woman.

    I blog for a few reasons, first and foremost because writing has always been my safest outlet since I was 12. It's extremely therapeutic. Many times, I just write, without conscious thought, I just write. And thousands of times, I've looked back through old journal entries and found that the answer I was seeking was written on the very page I had asked the question. I came to the conclusion, that the answer was always with me. All I have to do is write, not searching for an answer, because it will come, but just write. Sometimes I can see the answer right away. Whenever I've underlined anything in my blog its because I instantaneously recognize that as an answer to a question I have been asking.

    I make it available for different reasons. I have to believe that I have been through hell & back, a handful of times for different reasons so I can better serve a higher purpose. So I can relate to more people and help them to come out of hell too. So I can say, "I've been where you are, I know that pain you're feeling. You don't have to feel this way anymore." I spend time everyday reflecting & meditating on life. Sometimes, answers come when I least expect it, like when I'm walking out of Denny's, or when I'm blow drying my hair, or when I'm going like a mad woman on the precor at the gym. Who am I to keep this a secret? To keep this to myself. A moment of enlightenment, that can help someone else too? I have no idea when I'm going to say something, that may change someones life. Random people have said 4 or 5 worlds in passing that have changed the way I looked at something forever. I follow my heart, say what I feel, and make it accessible for people to "stumble upon." Many of my blogs are very personal. They show heartache, failures & successes, obstacles, miracles, things people may disagree with or not believe, things that may hurt others feelings, or cause people to be angry with me. Within these words there is potential for misinterpretation, humiliation, opportunities for people to judge me, or change the way they think about me, but none of this is of my concern. My intention is connect people. To expose my strengths & weaknesses as a teaching tool, for myself & others and inspire others to do the same so we can all heal. My hope is to encourage others to write, speak up, and not be so afraid of the pain they have experienced. Because there is not one person on this planet that has never felt shame, pain, guilt, or any of the other feelings we try and hide. We are not perfect. Not one of us. The closest bonds of friendships are built when we let our guard down, when we find out that OMG, THAT person has been through this exact same experience. It's like we are instantly friends, because we share a similar story, and feel we can talk about in openly. Guess what, there are probably three other people in your life that share that story too, but we don't easily talk about our deepest fears or most painful memories, blogging opens that door.

   This blog is called Light, Lessons, & Love for a reason. Because in every situation, that's what I look for. The Light of the Divine for guidance, the lesson so I can learn & teach others, and Love because that's all that exists anyway. When I focus on these three things... everything else falls away.

In Love & Light,
Dottie

"How beautiful & liberating it must be to have nothing to hide." - Matthew Kelly