"Run wild, until you find someone just as wild to run with."
Nothing thus far has fit us more perfectly. It's morning. I was weird yesterday. I missed her for the first time since this whole thing happened and thought for some reason it would be a good idea to tell you. I really do say dumb shit sometimes. I am a person of method, of rules, of guidelines. I like lists and organization. I like tasks and getting shit done. I can only imagine this part of me comes from my unwavering Libra heart to balance unbridled dance I do with life when I'm not doing lists and paying bills. Loosing myself in circular motions and head throwing laughter. I'm a girl who's in love with the world, but nothing reaches the depth of who I am like this moments, these quiet, alone moments.
I met you at a time in my life when I stood still but conscious watching my sense of my self fade away, arms stretched, hand out with some voice I didn't recognize or trust, trying to convince me it was okay. Compromise. Balance. Safe. This is what you need. Someone to calm you, someone to balance you. Someone not like you. I felt like I was dying. I felt my light dimming and my breath slowing; the inperturbation before the death.
Then I saw you. I saw me in you. I recognized your spirit as someone with whom I had danced before. It was that aha moment for my Spirit when it clicked, a sudden all-encompassing understanding of your role in my life and mine in yours. When you went from someone I felt I knew on some level to knowing exactly who you were. It's like discovering that face you recognize and can't put a name too is actually your most adored childhood friend who somehow got lost in the shuffle of life. There is so much catching up to do, so much excitement. So much instant re-connection, everything else in the world seems trivial. So we ran with it.
