Looking back on 2021, then and now, I would say it was one of the hardest years of my adult life, but all things that will make me and my family stronger and better in the long term - my 13 travel nursing contract, my Mother's death, Adelynne's broken arm, covid x2, moving business offices, taking craniosacral I &II, Uncle Denny's death - all things that make me go how the hell did we get through all this?! But we always do. We traveled a lot this year - Chicago twice on a train, east coast (which I am really missing right about now), SC and GA with "the neighbors", then I went back to GA myself for training - those parts have been joyous to reflect on. There have been lots of laughs, growth, and love this year.
My hair is longer, my weight is higher, but I'm happier than I've been in a long time. I've been on stimulants for over a year and I think they've effected my mood and disposition more than I've wanted to admit. They are also probably part of the reason I am gaining weight right now. I'm releasing that fear every time it comes up. Sabrina and I have fought more this year than we ever have. There were times when I think we both weren't sure if we were going to make it to 2022 together. But we did. I spent a couple months in a pretty deep depression, probably pioneered from my moldavite I wore to the east coast (that was not the best idea I've ever had!) But I've been humbled, I've been made softer, and I've been enlightened to things about myself and others that I had struggled to see. My family's happiness and well-being is important to me, so is my own. I cannot pour from am empty cup, and I am re-embracing that truth and standing strong in it.
This next year, 2022, will be a personal 3 year for me. 3 years are about creativity, self-expression, and taking care of ourselves. I need this. Habits I'd really like to create in the new year are being 5 minutes early to places/appointments/etc., walking more to Mallory's and the office, being more loving and kind with my words and conversations with Sabrina. I'd also like to honor my commitments and develop a routine that honors myself, my family, and my work. Spiritually, I'd like to be more grounded and more intuitive. Yoga, Gym, walking, sauna, and nourishing foods.
We intend to have Bexley in daycare 3 days a week. I'm not sure on they days, I'm still feeling that out. I'm looking forward to the new year, I'm full of confidence, hope, and joy. I'm proud of my family and want them all to continue to grow and find joy in their daily life. I want all good things this year for everyone - friends, family, and strangers alike.
