Break

 "‎"Talk to your partner: be honest, even if it hurts. Tell your partner that it will hurt, but nothing to be worried about. You have been happy together; if it hurts, that too has to be faced. Be absolutely true - no finding of scapegoats, no witch hunting, no rationalization. Just be true. Look into yourself, show your heart, and help the partner to also be true. If love is finished, then be friends, there is no need to force it." - Osho ♥

      There are moments, when only love exists in my heart. Then there are moments of release, of letting go, of a sadness. Reminding myself to stay in THIS moment. Not the moments that where. I wrote an journal entry the other day about what would I say if someone asked me in five years what this relationship was like, what would I say? I'd say it was beautiful. She was beautiful. It was one of the most expansive & phenomenol expieriences of my life. "It was the meeting of two kindred souls ready to know themselves more and understand what true love really was. We shared love and passion, anger, healing & hurt." Because that's what it was, and still is. Her being a woman, and the obstacles that would come along with that didn't even matter to me. Because whatever was flowing between us was so fucking divine, all the wordly bullshit didn't matter. We could face anything together. There was a strength about us as we stood side by side. I wasn't afraid, I was never afraid.  B just asked, "Are you done hoping for a relationship with her?" I don't know. Never in my life had I expierenced such a deep connection to another human being. Apparently, neither one of us knew what to do with it. A mutual stillness. A basking in an energy so intense, it felt as if you couldn't speak. My heart tells me the best thing for us is a break, a serious break. A no contact break for a little while. Who knows how long. I've become so distracted. The computer is getting loud, B is texting me. It's okay. It's always okay. I'm okay right now.

Love & Light
Dottie