To Capture Forever

"To Capture Forever" - It's just a lyric. Nothing special, no initial deeper meaning, it was just there, in my ears in the same moment my cursor took it's place in the title bar. But somehow seemed fitting.

I forgot how much I love bookstores... and coffee. Starbucks coffee to be exact. I've spent the last 2 hours or so walking around reading bits and pieces of art. Of peoples' advice, opinions, lives, & experiences. It's beautiful. Coffee house music enveloping me as I walk the isles completely content with my White Peppermint Mocha in hand. The only discouraging fact is that I have only half a battery life on my laptop, and surprisingly they don't have plugs. Guess I better write fast if I want to write. I was reminded today of my deep desire to write a memoir. To share my experience, strength, & hope as the say in Alcoholics Anonymous. Those things, along with my weaknesses, my perceived failures, my whole self as I know it. Self absorbed? Narcissistic? I guess that is left to the opinions of others. If it touches people, if it changes lives and inspires people to be who they are, to face their fears, it would seem it would be serving a grander purpose. If it didn't, that's okay too. The process alone would be an incredible personal fulfillment within itself. An incredible drawn out and in depth reflection upon my life. Reflection & introspection have always been one of my favorite places. I have found much peace & healing within that sacred process. A fearless & searching moral inventory. Although I no longer consider myself "part of the program" I cannot deny the impact some of its more powerful "suggestions" have had on my life.  I love this place so much right now. I love coffee houses, acoustic type music, writing, and people watching. It feels so good here. I should come here more often.

This. Here. Does something for my soul. It allows it to be open. Connected. Even though I am a mere observer. "Bring me a higher love" covered by James Vincent McMorrow playing in my ear buds... I watch three gentlemen discuss books, write, & sip their coffees. The first two sat alone and delighted in each others company for some time. They are all smiling & laughing. And I cannot judge. I have no idea what they are talking about, all I see is happiness. It's a beautiful thing. Aware there is always a balance to be maintained. Balance of reflection with present moment being. The flowing between the two gives my heart & soul feet to dance and music to follow. When I can be an observer of the world & lost within my own. When I can create my own sacred space within, and simply be part of the world without allowing myself to be effected or attempting to effect it. To simply be. And I am inspired.

With Grace & Gratitude...