Deserve What?

"I deserve it."

I've been on a low-carb, low-sugar diet for a few weeks now; aiming for under 100g/day, usually falling between 100-150g/day. I'm okay with that. From what I gathered from my Google research, under 100g is what people who are trying to loose weight consume. Well, that's exactly what I'm doing, so I'll take it. ESPECIALLY since, I looked back on my myfitnesspal for the last three months and saw that I had been consuming between 2500-400g/day. 150 seemed like a very reasonable place to start. I stay away from all white breads, pastas, etc. No potatoes, no starchy veggies, and limit my intake of fruit. (Although when I'm really craving something sweet, fruit is a hell of a lot better than chocolate covered raisins or twix bars. I'll take the fruit, thank you). Carbohydrates are an absolute necessity in the diet and cannot be realistically completely avoided. Well... unless you want to send your body into a hypoglycemic like state and damage your kidneys among many other things I'm sure. I've increased my protein and veggies. It's working for me. I feel a huge difference. I'm not nearly as bloated, and I'm loosing weight while maintaining my strength. I've also been sticking to 3 cardio days a week now, along with my 3 days of lifting. So, I'm sure that is helping with my weight loss. They say "you can't work your way out of a bad diet" & "Getting fit happens in the gym, getting thin happens in the kitchen." There's truth to that.

Three days ago I decided I deserved some Pizza Hut. I trimmed a little metaphysical fat off my total indulgence and ordered, thin crust pizza and some boneless chicken wings to add protein so I wouldn't be hungry later. All together (yes, I looked it up before) I consumed just about 100g of carbs in one meal. For the entire day it wasn't much more than that, because I considered that my cheat meal, and did my best to consume virtually NO other carbs that day. Fine. I enjoyed every bite and left without a singe ounce of guilt. You are suppose to have a cheat day, and besides, I did at-least skip on desert! Bad thing is the next day... I had nachos and cake. Then the day after that (last night) I had actual bread. Besides, I had been doing REALLY well, and it was date night and I was fine dining, and the oil is good for me... lol

But what I really deserved, was the goal I have been working towards. That feeling of freedom & pride, increased energy, & healthier body and mind. I had to remind myself of that, to feel that energy and put my focus there. Because what we focus on, is exactly what we get. Don't believe it? Watch your thoughts. What are you focusing on? Really. There is a difference between what you want and what your focus is. I may want to clean house all day, but if I keep thinking, "I'm never gonna get to this house today." I won't. Shit will still be exactly where it was when I woke up ;)