Don't Be a Victim

"Don't be a victim"

This statement has rolled through my mind regularly the last few days. I've acknowledged it and given it some energy. I've probed it's relevance and possible signal for self-reflection, especially, in light of some family drama and new realizations. Don't be a victim. 

I don't necessarily feel I am that person who allows myself to be feel victimized often, if ever. It's something I've lived and dealt with in depth previously, and I remain mindful of it's potential to affect my life again. But why was this coming into my awareness? Why was the Universe dropping these hints, or more so, reminders to no be a victim? Was I allowing myself to be that? Had I already fallen back into that trap temporarily? Family dynamics are the trickiest of human relationships. I've often noticed that as soon as I feel I've got something healed or handled the Universe puts a family member in front of me and tests my ability to make a different decision or carry out a different action.

Don't be a victim.

It's easy to allow when it's all you've ever known. It's easy to do when it feels like things are always being done TO you. It's easy to do when you feel out of control or exhausted. It's easy to do when you give in against your better judgement because you are utterly exhausted from the boundaries you've set are constantly being pushed against. For the Walking Dead fans, it's like holding a wall against a herd of zombies. They never stop pushing, and more noise attracts more of them to push against your boundaries. Eventually, the mortal (the mindful) get pissed. And when they do, they push back with vengeance and leave devastation in their wake. That's where I'm at.

With Grace & Gratitude...