Weight & Contentment

"A healthy weight is about contentment."

This phrase has rolled in and out of my awareness at least a half dozen times over the last three days. I have been peeling back layers of self-pity, blame, judgement, anger, resentments, shame, embarrassment, and a couple others alluding my fingers at this moment. Yes, all of those things, each and every one, have acquired some of my attention over the last several months. Mostly, as it relates to discovering why I carry somewhere between 50-80 extra pounds on my body. Pounds that a representative of something deeper.

I've allowed myself to relax a lot around food. That sounds silly, but I had myself so worked-up and upset about weight gain, attempts at figuring it all out, and fear that I was projecting these onto others and feeling as if a large rock was sitting in my stomach every time I'd sit at the dinner table. I knew this wasn't healthy. All this in conjunction with not necessarily listening to my body as much as I was pushing it in the gym to go harder, farther, faster. Not allowing it the recovery it needed.

A healthy weight IS about contentment. Contentment with being where you are, what you're doing, and who you're with. It's being present and not desiring an escape. Contentment is in the mind. It takes practice and mindfulness. We can suddenly obtain everything we've ever wanted and still not feel content if we've not cultivated our minds in such a way that we find ourselves present in each moment.

With Grace & Gratitude...